Month: November 2013

you need to learn this quickly…

   You must learn to know what to trust. I am going to catch a lot of crap for this letter but it needs to be said. Watch a person’s fruit. Not what they say, but what they do, what they take. It is ok to be beaten once but after the third and fourth times you should become wiser. You have spent a life time here. What have you learned? Well that depends on what you made important.

 

I am going to let you in on a tiny secret from GOD. Look at the people’s names. The last name tells about the person or his family tree and the first name about the person you’re dealing with now face to face. Go by his given name. Always ask for full name. If you don’t know the meaning Google it.

You think I’m nuts go through the list of people you grew up with  and around, check for yourself. Also look at the people on the world stage. Hollywood, us government, etc. GOD tells you all about them without saying a word. Remember nothing is written in stone, a person can change, it takes great effort, most don’t, lazy whatever. Also look at the names of your friends you will see a pattern with each name it is used over and over and the personally type is almost always the same. The person is the key. If you like a person stay on their butts about changing, they will if they admire and respect you enough.

This is very important with what is coming you will need to know who to trust as quickly as possible, start looking into it now, get good at it, it just might save your life! Look into the Hebrew meaning of names, GOD named everyone on this planet. GOOD LUCK GUYS YOUR GOING TO NEED IT.  Start doing your homework now. Get good at it…

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proof of GOD

   I ask you, can I reason with you? Once reasoned with, will you admit the facts are just overwhelming?

This could not just come to be, but a powerful mind sat and thought this through until its end. Showing us his ways are well and good?

Let us start with simple foods.

 Corn, beans, butter beans, black eye peas, green peas, snaps, green beans, turnip greens, squash, watermelon, Canola, peaches, apple, pear, orange, cucumber, pumpkin, man I could go on for hours with what I’m familiar with in just this country alone. Don’t even have to go into meats or animals and the different kinds and what they do for us. Just think about the vast numbers of birds, those which are eatable and those which are colorful to the point of art. From small fish to huge whales that live in water but have to surface to breathe the air.

Not just the pure amount of variety but also each one provides a unique vitamin for us to maintain and improves life itself. Then let us look at emotions from laughter to crying, from sorrow to pain, from happy to sad and all the places we find ourselves in between. Let us look at the family unit to friendships to lovers. We all fall into one of those if not many of these categories’ all at the same time.  

Do you know how many different languages there are?  6,000 this list does not include slang such as north from south or east from west. You know how they talk down in New Orleans, or up in New York, or way down south with that good ole southern charm like myself or even those out on the west coast with a flare all its own and we all know and love ghetto, a sound all its own. Let’s not forget about color and all the fuss it causes. Yep, white, red, yellow and black. Last but not least sexes, male and females with their perfect curves, both are complex just depends which angle you are looking from.

I still can’t figure out how GOD did it making a person conceive and grow inside another person’s body and then to come out from that same great hole and then everything go back just the way it was before it ever begun. WOW, JUST WOW.

Take a look at music and all the different forms, from country to rock, from rap to punk from soft to metal thump. Hard and fast to sweet and slow, from I love you or YOU MUST GO! Take one last look at the weather, sunny and hot to icy freezing cold.

ALL THESE THINGS WE SEE ON A DAILY BASICS and people still have the nerve to say, THERE IS NO GOD!

I can’t get my mind around such a small mind as this? Is it because they won’t accountability? Or is it because their pride can’t take the thought of something greater than them or even a creator? He might know what is best for us. He might know a way to make me happy if I would only stop turning away. True joy from the one who made joy. There is a day coming when all things will be seen in the light of day, nothing got bye him and rewards will be given that can never be taken away. We will never grow old, or tired, or sick. Never to be fat or skinny, never hungry or sad again, just true joy for the ages.

I ask is there one among you who can know all this and still claim there is no GOD? If there is I sure would like to talk to this fool…I have barely touched the surface here and all that our lives are and can be. We must learn to humble ourselves and ask for help then guild ship, it is free for the asking and taking. Our father is willing to give all his children true joy and happiness; we must first learn wisdom, which is why we were first sent here. Now all the questions have found their answers. Talk to your father daily…  

DEAD MAN RUNNING…

 

 

 

I grabbed a shirt and an old pair of pants, the sun was about to set, just the way it has on my life. All the songs on the radio making sense in this confused mind of mine. Ant going to work tomorrow what’s the point? I have come to the end of my road and just like the movies, I will ride off into the setting sun.
I bet it all on this heart of mine, once again I would lose. There will be no next time, nothing left to give. Don’t believe I can go through the pain again, the hurt of it all, remembering the things I said in front of all of them and the sad look on her face. She felt sad for me. Not understanding she looks on a dying man. How could I have been so foolish? I knew better. This world is the super bowl of liars. I have no home, no one waiting on my call, no one worried I haven’t been around in a while.
This night I will drive until I find a new place to call mine, knowing no place exist, just this cold awful place. I fear no bullet to the brain; I fear no high dive off the 30 story building. The only thing I fear is to keep waking up here and I keep waking up here.
Stop by the liquor store on the way out, a couple of 5th’s should hit the spot, not sure where this train is going to end. Takes all my strength to not cry while standing in line. All the smiling faces, happy times all around. No one knows of my pain, no one cares. I get to the car and fix a strong one and hit the highway. I drive deep into the night, half praying half saying goodbye, hoping I can carry out this plan this time. I tell myself GOD will understand, this pain is greater than I. what I can remember is the road began to move and the side of the highway keep hitting the side of my car, I don’t want to hurt anyone else was a fading thought. I woke up over looking this lake. To my right sat an empty bottle and in the back seat sat his friend. I would open that bottle and begin again; this went on for a few days. I needed a bath and a shave. My money was getting short and in need of real food.
Man how am I going to do this, I got to go home, back to my lonely place. I had no idea where I was and didn’t care, lucky I ant in jail. That happen before, was on my way to California that time. Freedom sometimes is all you get. I am free to feel this pain anywhere I go. I did feel it for some time, but time once again was a friend of mine. The scars healed and the memories began to fade. I would live to tell another tell and help another when he found himself there.
I used to think all the pain was such a vain thing, but could you amazon if someone tried to explain such a thing to you, as a broken heart. How pride talks real loud then. Telling you to do this and that, I will show them! Well I did showed them, a man stands here. I have been tested by all things and I have become wise. Wise enough to understand tomorrow don’t always look like today and if you wade through enough tomorrows, tomorrow comes, a fresh new day. I am stronger for all those yesterdays, but yesterday didn’t look so pretty then. When I walk up, you only see what stands in front of you, but if you could hop into my mind what a ride it would be. The up and downs the twists and turns and the dead stops built this man. We must learn to give each other a little more credit, some things I take well others tear my very soul. We all have different gifts and different strengths. We must come together to weather the coming storms. Each man put where he finds himself on purpose. There is no better place for you. Do your part right where you stand.
When I found the deep dark nights, I always talked to the thin air as if somehow someone was listening and when the day came and the sun shine was bright, I somehow couldn’t see anything but pouring rain, I kept talking hoping it would ease the pain, it did help pass the time. The seconds seem to strength into mins and the best I could do is breath and many days all I did was breath. Pushing apart the spaces in time. Hunting something to get my mind off what was going on, nothing seemed to work, but the days did slowly pass and every new day I got a little better at faking it. Most of all I just waited it out. I sit here today telling you, this too will pass…
We the people of the most high GOD have seen the ways of the world and took part in her sins. No wise man took the stage and told us to come out of her and in our folly we stayed and longed after things that would destroy us. Our father in his anger would not allow those he loved to be thrown into the fire and must bring this place to its ruin. In front of us we must learn by watching the dying. Don’t let the devil trick you and turn you to the ways of the dammed. We have a righteous and jealous GOD who loves us dearly. For us this end must come or there would be no elect left. Nothing left to save. Now the storm cloud gather and the strong winds blow. The day of our lord is here. Pray and hang on to all that is good. Help all those he puts in your way and when there turn comes they will do the same.
As we pass through the veil the pain and sorrow will begin to fade and we will return to our rightful ways and be glad he came to save us from ourselves. A great super is being prepared for the great day of our return to our rightful place at his table. Joy will once again fill the air and love will rule us all as it should be. Forever and a day…

THE LONG RUN…

 

 

 

How many of you have run a long distance race, or remember when you were young and you got the great idea to stay up all night. You started out strong and more than willing to endure the task ahead. We all sat around and talked until we ran out of things to say, we watched TV until all the channels were taken off the air. Then our numbers began to drop fast as soon as the true boredom sat in. just the still of the long dark night and those of us that were left, never more than two or three by four am.
This is when I would grow tired also. Kinda wishing I hadn’t agreed to the plan to start with, but now that it’s done let’s see how far we can go. Out of the two or three that were left one would always remember something that had to get done tomorrow and without sleep it wouldn’t get done or wouldn’t be much fun either.
So what, a deal is a deal, I would say! Who is the toughest man here? We are barely pushing nine years of age, but already trying to out man each other. From wheelies on our bicycles to jumping out of the tallest tree. Oh yea let’s not forget the classic, jumping across the biggest part of the creek. You must jump even if I fall in, deal? Ok it’s a deal! I would always jump even if my buddy was standing soaking wet trying to figure out what to tell his mother. Sometimes I made it and sometimes I didn’t, but every time my word was good. I gave it a try.
It used to make me so mad when one of my worthless friends would say, I ant going to try it, your soaking wet, IT’S TOO FAR! So what man, a deal is a deal, you must try and he wouldn’t. He fell off my ladder that day and never got back on it. I didn’t forget your words are crap and so are you. You’re no friend of mine. My brother was one of those worthless kinds, the few times he would agree.
It never failed it would always come down to me and one other guy. I would sometimes talk crap, like why do your eyes hurt so badly? Why don’t you try closing them for a few mins, or if you will lay completely flat with a nice soft pillow under your head it will be much easier. If they tried either I would declare victory in a few short mins. Off to fairytale land they would go.
The key to victory in this arena is to stay uncomfortable that alone will keep you awake. After all my wins I would encounter another problem. How do you prove who stayed awake the longest? The hard answer is to be awake when he wakes back up and that’s the way it usually went. An all-nighter and an all-day both. My brother and I as we grew older began the mega all-nighters, meaning we would call them hours without sleep and we would reach into 70 and 80 hours. Starting one morning whenever we woke up and not stop until one falls asleep. 11am to 11am is 24 hours, then 11am to 11am again is 48 hours and we would go until early the next morning most times. Day break of the third day is hard on the eyes and can be tough on the brain. These were the early days of me learning how to push myself willingly. Later I would learn how to endure because there was no other choice.
Well folks I said all that to say this. We have the all-nighters of all-nighters coming, add shortage of food, loss of close family member’s (to either refusal to partake or maybe even death or capture), and the comforts of modern life to the mix and you begin to see the challenges that stands before us. The chances of our success greatly improves when we surround ourselves with those we love and trust. I would even go so far as to say, that our only chance to endure the storms that lay ahead is with those we love around us daily. It is a must! There are very few who were as unlucky as me and were forced to endure alone. You have to figure out ways to bring these new problems up in conversion and begin working on the solutions as a team. A team effort is a must. Do it often letting them know you are really sure about what is coming. Sure it will make a few mad or uncomfortable, but what other choice is there?
The way the law reads is you must have the new mark by the said date. At least that is the way it reads as of now. If it stays that way we have our date. My guess is an event will happen and the time will change and a new “force” day will come right out of left field in the form of road blocks, executives order or other means. You must talk these types of POSSIBILITY over and work out what to do in case of. Then think of every POSSIBILITY and have a plan ready with everyone on board with, “this is what we will do when this happens” https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web

Here is the link I hope it worked. All kidding aside, we must prepare our minds and our families, the day is coming. We must prepare to have a fighting chance! I don’t care who calls me a nut or whatever they wish. I am doing this to help you. I’ll take the heat; help yourself and your family and friends. If you truly love them then this will be the least you would do. It is very late in the day folks we are quickly running out of time. Just like 9-11-2001. They knew months, even years before that date in order to plan all the things down to the tiniest details. What and when to let the media tell to the public. Putting the explosion inside the 3 towers, record the fake messages of cell phones calls, death lists, flight paths and times, just to name a few.
Those who are still on the fence, answer one question, how did building 7 fall? Find that answer and you have found the truth.
Those who think my friends and I only bring fear, I’m sorry you feel that way and you have chosen to close your eyes to the list of proofs our government has gone rouge. Please respect others free will. I don’t mind people airing their beliefs, but please air them only once. Having a paid account I can block post. I choose not to, just as Jesus answered every question brought to him, I hope to do the same. I must add, I bring information from beings not from this earth and that I trust them fully. At some point my guess is I will be banned from this site also. Once the governments tell them to ban me they will maybe even before. They trust the money system of this world and will do whatever needed to protect this flow of wealth. At this point I’m still making them money and as of yet have not become a big enough threat, that will change. I have an account on wordpress.com you can contue following my posts there when this fails permitly. Or you can write me off as mentally unstable and take your chances with the rest of them. I will not pay for anything you do. I will be held 100% accountable for every word I utter and every action I take, either good or bad, and so will you. Remember that.

HOW AMERICA FELL…

 

 

 

How did the USA go from the best country in the world to the worst in one generation? Well for one, it has taken more than one generation, (to stay biblically accurate, which is the true litmus test) the final leg happened coming out of ww2. After the second detonation of the atomic bomb on japan, that put the US in the driver’s seat!
Hitler went to great lengths to make contact with the alien’s (fallen angels, kicked out of heaven) but only had success meeting the ones who were sent to him during the night and in his dreams. It was there he learned of this great and mighty army, great and mighty by their numbers only and of course having powers that seemed godlike. He was told they live in a waterless place beneath the earth’s crust and he spent a lot of time and money trying to reach them. Hoping with their help he would win the war, some even claim it was with them he made his escape and never shot himself. (Google it if you need proof) He also spent a bunch of time and money trying to retrieve any and all relics that belonged to JESUS. (You may Google that also, these are facts) Hitler was not an atheist as the state ran media and world leaders would like you to believe. In fact in one of his filmed interviews he openly stated that he worked for the stronger god of the two. He claimed he would rein for a 1000 years through rebirth. Those were his words.
JESUS also states in the bible. JESUS will rule with an iron fist.
Revelation 20:4
And I saw thrones and they that sat upon them, and judgment was given unto them. And I saw the souls of them that had been beheaded for the witness of Jesus and for the Word of God, and who had not worshiped the beast, nor his image, nor had received his mark upon their foreheads or on their hands; and they lived and reigned with Christ a thousand years.

The fallen angels knew Hitler was just a fall guy and he would go on to lose the war, so they stayed just out of reach, but encouraged him to do all the horrible acts he did to the Jews and the rest of mankind by killing of hundreds of millions of animals and humans also trillions of dollars’ worth of damage to the worlds infrastructure. These acts setting the stage for the last generation.
Allowing women to leave their homes by putting them to work in the factories to build the war machines. Knowing that after the war the rich and powerful would use this so called freedom (right) to empower their fall. Women’s liberation pushed their agenda’s worldwide demanding equal rights and pay, etc. The apple in the garden once again, and did they fall or follow, however you wish to say it.
The greatest and final straw on humanity would be technology. Add Rosie the Riveter 1942 the factory workers, Albert Einstein, Charles Darwin, and Stephen hawking and the mix is world changing to world ending. The part of the story that has been left out that history will fill in, is the part our government allowed the fallen angels to play and labeled it top secret and many times for eyes only. Leaving no trace whatsoever for those who would follow in the Senate and House of Representatives, all the way to the highest offices in the land, even above our president.
The black projects, in the United States, a black project is in the vernacular a highly classified military/defense project, unacknowledged publicly by the government, military personnel, and defense contractors. Examples of U.S. military aircraft developed as black projects include the F-117 Nighthawk stealth attack aircraft and the b-2 spirit stealth bomber, both of which were highly classified and denied to exist until ready to be announced to the public, just to name a couple. . (Google Phil Schneider)
In the United States the formal term is special access program (SAP).
It was from here our technology comes or came. (Apple computers) Yea they put real men and women names on the projects that have been released to the world, but the truth is very different. Right about the time ww2 was wrapping up the fallen ones allowed some of their aircraft to be downed or better terms were staged wrenches of aircrafts.(Roswell New Mexico 1947) Also lucky are we that even a few of the flight crew managed to live and lead the way to the others who lived underground and were more than willing to help our chosen few (top generals and Gov. officials) know the secret’s to how this technology works, but for a price.(the early days were helping them build underground using our above ground materials) The price would become far more than any of us were prepare to pay. We were not asked if we cared to participate, we being the American public or the world for that matter. It wasn’t until later on did the cost become so high our leaders could not cover up these cost and past the laws to allow the Federal Reserve to begin loaning us the money. Removing accountability from our tracking system (banking system)
Accountability of any cost to black projects. The perfect fix with one major flaw! We were not in control of any of these projects, the aliens were. They began dictating what, when and where we would spend and how it would be spent. The aliens brought much more than just technology, they knew the future and from where it would come. Just point your telescopes to this cordialness and take a look. The end of our world staring them right in the face. A comet the size of??? This part I don’t know, the size that is. Wormwood (star) also called Apsinthos in the Book of Revelation, a star that falls upon Earth and poisons a third part of the waters.
Some other problems came with this, as members of the house and senate caught wind of our troubles they begin to blackmail each other allowing terms that we see today. 20 and 30 year terms with the technology to rig elections it went on at a fever pace. The final task was given to its leaders, elect Obama! This was given by the leaders of the aliens or fallen angels, the devil himself, one they have all come to know in different but the same way. A spirit that has the ability to take their lives at will if his orders are not followed to the letter. (9-11-2001). A few tested him and are no longer with the living. Our leaders and elected officials have been told wild and crazy stories about the solar system, mars, etc., GOD, and even himself. None of them true, the BIBLE STILL HOLDS THAT TRUTH, complete and untouched by man, just translated, like it or not. They (our leaders worldwide) bought every story hook, line, and sinker.
They have spent billions to build and prepare underground cities stocked to the teeth with food and supplies to last the duration of the direct hit. Power fail (not sure if there will be a direct hit, but maybe only a fly by. Japan being wormwood) they have built over 800 fema camps and signed all the needed new laws with the changes to house, kill, and control the remaining people with a mark placed inside each person. This mark having the ability to keep all records including bank account, medical, and class one holds in society, such as work details and where one should be at any given time, and the ability to change info remotely. This chip can and will alert them to any person out of place should the need arise. Making it possible to buy and sell without the need for cash. One last string is attached to this chip, it is a stain on your soul and anyone who gets this mark of the beast will not enter the wedding feast or heaven, as it clearly states for any of you who have yet to read the bible.
The only things I am missing at this point is which comes first, the mark or the comet, the power grid complete failure and an attack from Russian or china troops from our Texas border, and of course the failure of the stock market, my guess is it will all take place on or about the same time or date, all of the above is complete system failure. I gave the condense version to most of the stories above… all this to come to pass by or in the year 2017. When is the rapture of the church? After these days of tribulation, and before the day of his great wrath? After the 5 months of those being stung by the scorpion creatures, those who have the mark. Those able to watch or hear world news will hear about the two witnesses being killed in the great city, Jerusalem. After the 3 1/2 days of their bodies lying dead in the streets, the whole world giving and receiving gifts glad the two prophets were put to death. A GREAT EARTHQUAKE, this is when the rapture happens.
our government and the government official’s worldwide know of the coming destruction and have been preparing worldwide with the building of huge underground cities, collecting of seeds storing them underground also, etc. They have allowed the USA to print a never ending amount of cash using the Federal Reserve to hide the accountability of whom and what the money would be spent on. The world leaders have join hands in this final act in this last chapter of our story. They await the final one world rule under the control of a very few. There is no turning back, the show must and will go on as planned to the letter.
Each person carries his fate in his own hands. The MARK OF THE BEAST is the one mark or chip you must NOT, at any and all cost get! It dams your soul to abyss for forever. The fact I’m telling you this is proof of the bible’s creditability. Everything I have written can be checked and verified. I have seen all these being with my own two eyes. The devil and his crew are forcing our governments worldwide to put this mark into full operation by a preknown date. No, I do not know the date but I’m told to tell you and that is what I’m doing now. ALL WILL BE UP AND IN FULL WORKING ORDER by the time Obama is to leave office. I need you to plan a way out for you and your families. Have your plan ready the day is near…GODSPEED

U WILL NOT UNDERSTAND JUST YET…

 

 

 

For you will not understand what I’m about to say, but a day coming soon, you should look to the heavens and call his name as I did as a child. I knew not of loving arms and nice words, but I felt gentleness in the air, a wind of protection. A strong and mighty arm that watched over me, that spent days and nights with me, almost as if this force controlled the world making it spin, pushing and pulling the sun up and across the sky. A young mind cannot understand things of this size. I could see the beauty of this place. The gentle hand that loves the animals, the birds, squeals, rabbits and such.
Mostly I would feel the string of the bees, or the pinch of an ant, or the hard words of parents caught in a world full of lies, being foolish they believed them all. Being placed outside of our family group, I was able to look at it, and examine it, and hunt the truths that were in plain sight. Our love must come first, our actions talk much louder than the words I hear coming from the mouths of those who claim to love me, yet when I am cold you offer no blanket, that tomorrow I will understand. We seat alone and talk about loneliness. I couldn’t put it together, but something just didn’t fit. In a world full of plenty yet millions go without. Why? I would ponder day after day.
Then I was taken to church, almost as if it was the nursery she came in search of, a min. of peace and quiet. I heard these outrageous stories of great events in a time long ago. Could it be true? A GOD, watching over us, making sure all was well. I would talk to him every night but was sure he didn’t listen, yet I prayer, day after day. Maybe I wasn’t saying it right, or I was too young for his time. I would wait and question the truth of this man, GOD.
Then my uncle died. I was taken to see the ocean on that trip. As I stepped onto the sand and looked out over that great big ocean. That min I was saved, for in my heart I knew there was a GOD. That much water could not control it ‘self and with the sky as the back drop, my destiny was set. I would find and prove him to be real and alive and I would take my proof unto the whole world.
The following years would be built on trust as I traveled the roads alone; I wasn’t smart enough to be afraid, but I was wise enough to pay attention. Every action had a reaction and over time I began to understand his ways on a very surface level. I kept praying for the wrong things so it kept looking like I wasn’t being heard, yet all my needs were met, even in the times I lost it all. I always found food and shelter, not what I ask for, but what I needed, a jail can feed and house you and there were a time that was in order, and in a strange way my proof he was still with me. I always whispered to him, don’t give up on me.
Love I just could not grasp, what does it feel like? Is that the feeling, I wish you would never leave? That was as close as I got until a bit later in my life. Why is love so empty? Why is it so self-seeking. Why don’t I believe you? How can you love me, you don’t even know me, my parents didn’t love me, there is no way you can. So I would wait until you left. That was proof every time. They always left. Never did I blame myself, even though I told them, you will leave too just wait and see. These were not my words but they were my actions. The trusted house and board was always there, my GOD was still taken care of me. I should have been homeless at least a dozen times. I pushed everyone away, thinking if they loved me they wouldn’t leave. I never hit you, not once, not at least with my hands. My words were bounced off them day after day. That with a world that lives outside. the world that had no rules. I was destined for loneness.
I did find love in another person, at least my end of it. I truly loved her and wanted what was best for her and willing to pay for it out of my own pocket, but as destiny would have it. I found her as payment for one of GOD’s children I had hurt in my foolish youth. I knew it was true but very one sided until a few years later. The love I know and understand now is between two grown men, one is the smartest the world would ever behold and the other is me. True love, just the same. I hope all of you find what I have found. His hand is out strength to all who call out hoping to find. The dark night is when one can see the best.

some will wonder

 

 

  

For those of you who have wondered what you’re doing here and what life is all about. It is many things all wrap up in one thing called your life. It is meant to show you many things from every side of the coin. If any of you every knownist you have played every role from every side of the coin. Let me give you some easy examples. You have been on a date and been the third person, and you have been on a date and had a third person with your date, or you have been out and found a nice new girl, or you have been out and your friend found her. Well how did you act in all those different sernos. You should have learned from being the person from which others now stand.
Let me tell you about my childhood, we, my brother and I would go off to summer camp and when we returned, my stuff would have all been put away as if I wasn’t coming back. I would get mad and then they my family would say see you always cause problems. From a child’s point of view you don’t know what to believe so you just cry. My mother was world famous for saying you will understand when you grow up. Man I hoped she was right! Well as it turned out, she was right, but only my views grew stronger in my stance. Then I will change the world. A lot of things had to go very wrong, or well right for me to make the right decision that day the devil came. You see I didn’t want to rule in his world. I hated all he was!!! That is why I turned him down. There is a lot more to it, but that is the simple truth. Again if any of you meet my family in the days ahead. Do not hate them, do not use hard words. I love them. They did the job they were suppose too do, and did it well I might add.
As to the family structure, it is a well-oiled machine, both the one you grew up in and the one you now run. Everything worked out to teach you things you have yet to learn. By moving away or getting a new family, you just made the job harder and easier to quit. The goal will get accomplished just the same.
What yall see in the days ahead will not make much since; just know GOD is a just GOD and righteous in all his ways. Once you get a sit down and a good talk it will all make perfect sense. Trust him and try to figure out how he is right…this is the best way, he is right and even you will agree, even ole clown will agree…

 

 

 

At the dawn of my 7th year

At the dawn of my 7th year, I am beginning to understand many things. GOD said I support what you chose, thinking the answer to only one question was being asked, it turns out it’s the question or the answer being ask at the beginning to every question. My choice, but remember the answer will come with much thought. The reward or suffering lay on the end of each answer.
He is a fair GOD, but to be well understood much focus is needed. To understand what he is showing takes great amounts of time and effort, when my heart only want to play, knowing the day for play will come, but this day is upon me is a time of work.
All my dreams and visions have the possible to come from either source, good or evil. To understand the answer and next move I understand the mind of GOD, his heart is good and well-trained in his discipline, his work eckit far surpasses any person I have ever seen, his willing to meet me on any ground keeps me coming back to the sound of his voice. I long to be like him, my mentor, my friend, my father.
I have grown to understand the great of them all and my willing to please him still grows after all these years, far longer than the 7 I have spent getting to know the man. He is hard but fair, has yet to not pad my fall, there have been many, his helping hand waiting for me to want to walk again, and then I feel his gentle nudge. His hard nature keeps my tears at bay as the winter winds blow, only when I fall to I feel his voice with the power to raise the dead and many times I have been just that, the dead.
Thank you sir, ready to learn, still hard of hearing, but ready for the coming winds that will blow. Take me into the night, keep the light just bright enough to see each step, if only one at a time…

If someone were to ask me where I found GOD, I would tell them I found him in my sorrow, in my pain, in the emptiest places in my life. I remember laying there wishing for death and something inside me would say, “it is not over yet”. I would look around and say there is nothing here, I’ve looked everywhere. The voice would say it is a few days away just hold on. In that moment I found enough hope to stay another min, somehow I would strength it into months if need be. Never, before, it was too late would I give up. I would equate it to being underwater just about to run out of breath. Your mouth being forced to open, to gasp for air. I would always make it to the top, if you will. The timing was impeccable.
I would get to know this voice well and call on him often, never quite sure if it was I or he talking, but a trust, a relationship developed, and a bond was made. Through the darkest nights we would travel, never understanding why I was going through what I was going through, but knew it was necessary for my training somehow, yet I knew not what I was training for.
I would see the perfection of this place, in people, in their smiles, in the sounds of singer’s voices, etc. I thought I was digging deep, yet had barely touched the surface. If you people understood the great lengths GOD has gone to putting just one single life together you might understand his love.
I was taken to heaven and hell to be shown the whole story, not to look around and report back what I have seen, but to understand the task that lay ahead of me. I must come against a power and a much smart group of people and threw my words reach a few ears. I believe I have done that here and many other places. I write this today for no real reason other than I sit and wait again. The world has fooled many people and even the best of them would be fooled if not for the hand of GOD, it truly reaches down and saves a few, he chose us, just as he said.
I haven’t given up on any here or there, but after taking a long hard look. I realize it will all fall into place as it always has. If you don’t give up, you will make it. Keep your conversion real with GOD and he will keep his real with you. It is a two way street. The angels have cut us both some slack for now and thank goodness because I have given about all there was of me to give. I know most see me as some kind of nut. I mean just look how many people are out here claiming to be this and that. It is a bit overwhelming for even me sometimes. I question myself often, but I always fall back on my life for the real answer and I always find them there. Not one of the so called prophets out here can say what I do and have said from day one. I turned the devil down and took the hardest road known to me. The road was full of wisdom, but at the time it was full of hateful people. The wisdom is better seen looking back, not while traveling the route.
When times get tuff for me, I put my head down and grab on to the back of Jesus robe, it always works for me. When your road gets hard try it. I will write and check in when I can. Put my two cents in, while we wait for the coming storm. We will ride this thing out together and we all will make it. That’s his promise, not mine. Till then, have a great day…

a wise man…

For you will not understand what I’m about to say, but a day coming soon, you should look to the heavens and call his name as I did as a child. I knew not of loving arms and nice words, but I felt gentleness in the air, a wind of protection. A strong and mighty arm that watched over me, that spent days and nights with me, almost as if this force controlled the world making it spin, pushing and pulling the sun up and across the sky. A young mind cannot understand things of this size. I could see the beauty of this place. The gentle hand that loves the animals, the birds, squeals, rabbits and such.
Mostly I would feel the string of the bees, or the pinch of an ant, or the hard words of parents caught in a world full of lies, being foolish they believed them all. Being placed outside of our family group, I was able to look at it, and examine it, and hunt the truths that were in plain sight. Our love must come first, our actions talk much louder than the words I hear coming from the mouths of those who claim to love me, yet when I am cold you offer no blanket, that tomorrow I will understand. We seat alone and talk about loneliness. I couldn’t put it together, but something just didn’t fit. In a world full of plenty yet millions go without. Why? I would ponder day after day.
Then I was taken to church, almost as if it was the nursery she came in search of, a min. of peace and quiet. I heard these outrageous stories of great events in a time long ago. Could it be true? A GOD, watching over us, making sure all was well. I would talk to him every night but was sure he didn’t listen, yet I prayer, day after day. Maybe I wasn’t saying it right, or I was too young for his time. I would wait and question the truth of this man, GOD.
Then my uncle died. I was taken to see the ocean on that trip. As I stepped onto the sand and looked out over that great big ocean. That min I was saved, for in my heart I knew there was a GOD. That much water could not control it ‘self and with the sky as the back drop, my destiny was set. I would find and prove him to be real and alive and I would take my proof unto the whole world.
The following years would be built on trust as I traveled the roads alone; I wasn’t smart enough to be afraid, but I was wise enough to pay attention. Every action had a reaction and over time I began to understand his ways on a very surface level. I kept praying for the wrong things so it kept looking like I wasn’t being heard, yet all my needs were met, even in the times I lost it all. I always found food and shelter, not what I ask for, but what I needed, a jail can feed and house you and there were a time that was in order, and in a strange way my proof he was still with me. I always whispered to him, don’t give up on me.
Love I just could not grasp, what does it feel like? Is that the feeling, I wish you would never leave? That was as close as I got until a bit later in my life. Why is love so empty? Why is it so self-seeking. Why don’t I believe you? How can you love me, you don’t even know me, my parents didn’t love me, there is no way you can. So I would wait until you left. That was proof every time. They always left. Never did I blame myself, even though I told them, you will leave too just wait and see. These were not my words but they were my actions. The trusted house and board was always there, my GOD was still taken care of me. I should have been homeless at least a dozen times. I pushed everyone away, thinking if they loved me they wouldn’t leave. I never hit you, not once, not at least with my hands. My words were bounced off them day after day. That with a world that lives outside. the world that had no rules. I was destined for loneness.
I did find love in another person, at least my end of it. I truly loved her and wanted what was best for her and willing to pay for it out of my own pocket, but as destiny would have it. I found her as payment for one of GOD’s children I had hurt in my foolish youth. I knew it was true but very one sided until a few years later. The love I know and understand now is between two grown men, one is the smartest the world would ever behold and the other is me. True love, just the same. I hope all of you find what I have found. His hand is out strength to all who call out hoping to find. The dark night is when one can see the best.

A young man was talking to his dad, he said dad, “what is the difference between a smart man and a wise one”? his dad said, son, “a smart man knows when something don’t work, and a wise man knows why”!