son being born

As I watch my second son being born, they rapped him up in towels and handed him to me. Chase came in, wanting to see his brother. It was then I realized I had recreated my childhood, but I was seeing it from adult’s eyes. What have I done? This life of pain I had passed it on to another generation.
All I can do is teach them about their choices and how some can hurt for years and years. Was I up for this job, well I’m not dead so my fight isn’t over. I was 30 years old. I handed chance off to family and took a long walk down the hallways using the stairway searching for reasons once again. I walked out the doors and on the grounds of the hospital and took a sit under a shade tree and begun to travel back in time.
The places my life has been, every time I’m about to figure it out, things change again. I remember that night in my youth when evil came calling and I sent it away. Most will never understand that night from my point of view. All I had seen up to that point was hurt and pain. There is nothing here I wanted, no body want to give what I needed. So the devil didn’t stand much of a chance with me. I wanted love nothing but, caring and understanding.. Someone to teach me how to heal my pain and sorrow and then we would take it too the world and change it. The wrong half of the war showed up first, leaving big questions. I truly spent my life searching. I watched the people and how they acted and treated each other. It was all based on self. Everyone here is self-seeking. Why didn’t they understand joy comes from giving? I find great joy when giving someone a ride. I have a friend for a short while that is willing to Liston.
They show you movies all based on lies and sing songs telling you to do, what a wise man would fear. I hear and see them too. They take a piece of time and put all the pieces into place to fall just as the camera turns, if the camera would have stay in place you would have seen GOD and understood why, but the devil don’t want you to know the truth. He hopes you find the same fate he has. Not willing to tell you his was done by choice understanding all the rules. I can prove every word I say. Watch any movie and see how the people all look like the type of people who would really do something like that and their names match their roles also. Then go to school, church, local government, federal government, anywhere and see GOD has done the same thing. You see the devil has copied GOD’s every move. He wanted to be god, but with a few more evil rules added, GOD said no, I have said no, and every single person gets their say, yes or no. your life has showed you all your answers. Faith without works is worthless…
My life has a very happy ending; the kicker is no one believes me, just like when I told them about the devil. They ran away and now I bring good news they run just the same. Don’t matter much I don’t guess, soon they shall see as one would say. Yep an angel walked up and said you did well and GOD is very pleased with you and has chosen you for a great job. What is the job? I waited for his answer. We are going to shut this place down, what place? Earth, this is the end to this part and a great reign of CHRIST shall follow. Ok great let’s get started and we did. I began traveling back and forth to heaven and learning great things. I was ask to tell and I did, now my list of friends has grown even shorter and my enemies are at every turn it seems from emails to my front door. It’s ok I spend my life fighting the evil of this place didn’t figure it would end until the last day and it’s looking like I’m right again.
No, I haven’t written any great books and have no speaking gigs or TV interviews filling up my calendar. No pile of money to travel the world, but I have seen a great war in which the blood runs so deep bodies float down it. I have seen the son of man and his father. I have sat with Moses and heard great stories of long ago, I have sat and looked into the face of Daniel who was willing to be thrown into the lion’s den instead of bowing down to a man-made image. I could go on for a few more pages but I figure not many really care, nor would they believe me if I told them we are just a few days away from having to make the same choices as Daniel did, but with a very real out come not written down in a book they can now read as of yet.
I can tell you GOD will not understand why you took the mark. He said don’t take it and he meant it. He knows how hard it will be not too, but he also knows the reward is great and never ending. He told me to come and tell you to prepare and I have. If you don’t prepare you will leasten you chances of making it greatly. There will be no food so forcing you into fema, so get some now. Those of you who can’t afford to, put enough gas away to make it to me. I will feed you when the time comes. You must get to me. I have done my part, now please do yours. The time is short, prepare. Thank all of you for your time. I truly hope you all do well and your reward will be earned on some level, grace has got you here, huh…good day


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